Barbara is a beautiful woman in her forties. She is alive and strong, with her passions, secrets, dreams, and insecurities. Her surreal world keeps dragging me in and sometimes unexplainable happen. I started this project in January 2021, intending to work on the project for a year, I attempted to do at least one shoot per month. Through Barbara, I tried to perceive things I didn't fully understand. Throughout the months, Barbara grew and altered, becoming a more personal figure to me. Sometimes Barbara is a self-portrait and sometimes she is a different person and these dynamics can change simultaneously. She is a product of uncertainty, constant questioning and analysis. She could be someone I’ve never been, or maybe she is the deep essence of my personality. I think I will never discover this fully.
![](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/74e36984-462e-4147-9a63-ba9d3a90303a_rw_1920.jpg?h=6354b09792a3a3e052e71554c4c1b740)
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![Apple](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/4e3e0b88-5b8b-44b2-86bc-14ea9bf0e769_rw_3840.jpg?h=5d4ba3b97aa15821c45c658916ac82c8)
Apple
![untitled](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/32c21441-5019-438e-8c76-2aa939c28e50_rw_1920.jpg?h=c08cb5c9635a7c8f6e31d24972a23910)
untitled
![Cherry II](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/f86e1c01-7243-4886-96dd-6f45c63379b0_rw_1920.jpg?h=3f6044630a00b1370ea4ce864abb8881)
Cherry II
![Cherry III](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/2be46b53-3f70-4721-9a05-ac144c8d7b22_rw_1920.jpg?h=024e1407abba26f217747d04fc3b21c0)
Cherry III
![selfie](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/c29cd73c-4af0-4d93-866e-b5812dfbcd98_rw_1920.jpg?h=6dedde7e608da3e434d838cb93f19fb4)
selfie
![in the mirror](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/8b2a71a0-c68e-4307-ac95-3f5fe44ea582_rw_1920.jpg?h=e53bfffff2aea56df22085d255898a08)
in the mirror
![untitled](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/26b06f05-500f-4562-98f8-f313f0c4edb6_rw_1920.jpg?h=44731f6a8d9fcd31fd085d496b2981aa)
untitled
![The Secret 1](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/7a64174a-661f-46f2-8251-0803d701a244_rw_1920.jpg?h=38d6fc01941219312fa91b781b8b3b07)
The Secret 1
![The Secret 2](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/b4f1c087-aa2e-4bf2-a0a4-c6de1128e1c5_rw_1920.jpg?h=d0a4d477b50539b824919b4271545e7b)
The Secret 2
![Temptation I](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/6e76e423-75e0-48bc-845d-212ce0f56758_rw_1920.jpg?h=a460724e5cb95a6f9f9ce4d0e0727242)
Temptation I
![Temptation II](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/4d26662d-c7d2-4993-bb14-221c13a06349_rw_1920.jpg?h=8fb73085b83ba1294feeca8ba77aa826)
Temptation II
![Sunbathing](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/cff65309-0823-4969-b1b0-a214476ddacd_rw_1920.jpg?h=d518f5bef2f6d40dc2a4a4c1e710cec8)
Sunbathing
![Mondays](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/e68fe8a9-bf67-426b-b7f3-9d9d81741171_rw_1920.jpg?h=f66f88cd34dd1f030b73381d9caa7c95)
Mondays
![The House at The Corner](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/86aa4cba-d4fa-4f37-8fba-a0d6b6b669cb_rw_1920.jpg?h=117c68cf87bb026040bcd86f9d73da29)
The House at The Corner
![Cheerleeder](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/4ac175a3-c85c-488a-9159-9ebf28697e68_rw_1920.jpg?h=b2a23100e6bd12686c2b64d45a8b12be)
Cheerleeder
![Great Games](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/3793fbb9-8310-4dde-b472-4bd56b7e2b13_rw_1920.jpg?h=3bde779b031bce6f769ddf780b51003c)
Great Games
![Great Games](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/9dcefdde-06b8-47f7-aafb-abb45e28054b_rw_1920.jpg?h=aa38e13eb7354a37e72075b826320475)
Great Games
![Great Games](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/b2f0643f-eeca-49cd-ad13-993a15ae2f92_rw_1920.jpg?h=42f26a33f892a2577c046c8fab96fc87)
Great Games
![Sunbathing I](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/f6843020-286b-4950-9ef8-9b17a2d8e4ca_rw_1920.jpg?h=f0d88c869647336415bf821aeedc2a18)
Sunbathing I
![Explorer](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/4d63b539-3881-4e69-bbb9-774b938fc7c5_rw_1920.jpg?h=a305c3108c5b4b22b5f7e05d35a1e29e)
Explorer
![Explorer](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/9da9ef7e-49f4-442c-8b6c-572a2679c4c3_rw_1920.jpg?h=132a0f20ea9cc4c5dff507058148c785)
Explorer
![Explorer](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/d298c769-300e-4785-917d-5dbd8f62b504_rw_1920.jpg?h=ae70ca1face39263f0aa8e95f4e19668)
Explorer
![Explorer](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/b110d0bd-a9d4-4c1a-8f47-c6a8ea277ca3_rw_1920.jpg?h=ccb0dbaa4245c4155b78578a91996834)
Explorer
![Explorer](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/c7d12e5a-46bb-4dc1-8990-4215e1ba6ab6_rw_1920.jpg?h=50c7b4ce6d288b1d50fccec850734678)
Explorer
![Explorer](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/ca3c1bc1-111d-403f-adc8-8599727e71e9_rw_1920.jpg?h=8f835833d1d16e0d238300826365e363)
Explorer
![Explorer](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/9e7434df-bf86-48bd-ac52-4a0ad7433443_rw_1920.jpg?h=a5dd8778df00dc70cce4d0b3d3bfe0eb)
Explorer
![Explorer](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/10f65f18-7623-4530-b787-5375665c48cd_rw_1920.jpg?h=5a651df84be786d3df46a648e2e2ecfa)
Explorer
![Apathy](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/997a67e8-79bd-4043-91bc-fff3e99a6c96_rw_1920.jpg?h=823ba79a1f7cedf01c338c84d23cb1ed)
Apathy
![Explorer](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/f5042e11-65bf-48cd-89e1-ea52d39dc5f0_rw_1920.jpg?h=8ea7c627e125d42b9141a532a72a6214)
Explorer
![Protected](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/1801c2cc-a03e-4586-9005-67343a0bfe4a_rw_1920.jpg?h=b8cd1bf9e450599b8c73f48d55bb7da9)
Protected
![Healing With Spring](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/4c4304e9-1804-404e-b3f4-98507a233412_rw_1920.jpg?h=4d3aaac1654f59681322f74ca4c8c9bc)
Healing With Spring
![White Blossoms](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/51a03540-22f6-498a-8fcf-936ac5fb410e_rw_1920.jpg?h=bab4513bb34e1773110043a793a9c632)
White Blossoms
![White Witch](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/a637c3ce-5e6f-46e9-bfde-fc1e51b32a1a_rw_1920.jpg?h=4d9db59eb81b35e05816e10b33bed22d)
White Witch
![VIP](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/6f2c41e3-17c8-43da-a1b5-9876203036f1_rw_1920.jpg?h=4f3354f41cacb9ddeeb8289dbf4fd9f7)
VIP
![](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/97f4f6b8-b7ac-4565-a075-e702f5fdc568_rw_1920.jpg?h=3c324a05bfa3ef828ed72e22d1ee6e0f)
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![Identity Crisis](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/c0d6b814-5d09-4e43-ae2f-995f4ad2a54b_rw_1920.jpg?h=8e2db9d57bdb665cb55155c41e3d422a)
Identity Crisis
![Playground- 3](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/010b2e49-07d3-49ac-999e-27c87a5df125_rw_1920.jpg?h=e3ac88357d9c85608ddda98671c15630)
Playground- 3
![Playground- 4](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/64c7f4fb-2d6a-427f-9f63-831fc988c999_rw_1920.jpg?h=1f6122ab14e0d704736c44ea490157bb)
Playground- 4
![Playground- 6](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/2f44ca31-6b4b-458f-a50d-e6be3b47c98c_rw_1920.jpg?h=f05171aa29cf26eca8dc865d707572c9)
Playground- 6
![Playground- 7](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/7b549024-3141-4331-b5a9-f471e275c50b_rw_1920.jpg?h=add41fdf183eb45fcbc5c7fc9909a070)
Playground- 7
![Playground- 8](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/1656443f-58ee-41e0-93d7-b455a93e821c_rw_1920.jpg?h=d25136cc300354322d9e41619dbbadd4)
Playground- 8
![Playground- 9](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/9c5aa9c1-f4cb-48d2-8872-596866230ef9_rw_1920.jpg?h=1f142687a906d1213028a6364190f657)
Playground- 9
![Playground- 10](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/1db97efd-5bc9-47ca-969e-56e8c248bdb9_rw_1920.jpg?h=2a24c9d4fd8d86ed355bb0a25c384a72)
Playground- 10
![Playground- 11](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/d55935fe-e481-46cb-aabf-9131bd7fabc9_rw_1920.jpg?h=19fb38738cbf29e51ec36ee14f1b0f17)
Playground- 11
![Playground- 12](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/9f1fcb75-bfd5-4db8-badd-a8cac77fe838_rw_1920.jpg?h=34c18be35acd520be8f1f78293f5d756)
Playground- 12
![Going Home](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/ff228524-13da-44f6-9087-d77d48d20b17_rw_1920.jpg?h=ebf67364282c3f51f105d421247128f8)
Going Home
![White Nights](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/77fde8e6-2993-4318-8b2d-b0b645a2d7dd_rw_1920.jpg?h=6b31f58205ef98f64da054c8d312e71d)
White Nights
![Safe Place](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/586dba4a-cbd2-44fb-98c4-f9490bbb14fa_rw_1920.jpg?h=c40ed5ae088b8563679907694b041a56)
Safe Place
![Vogue](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/cc8068c4-0689-409a-b491-fe6d10a15d4e_rw_1920.jpg?h=39ae39e0dfd92523262ac878a69804ab)
Vogue
![Velvet](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/36b1d588-cbd7-4808-911a-caa03952bb43_rw_1920.jpg?h=06f5d19252279eb1ae945da79f401c1d)
Velvet
![Pink Heels](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/06905587-54f2-4f1c-b360-78c8b7ca35bb_rw_1920.jpg?h=6036af21ce968039fe9e405b3b0d6bb2)
Pink Heels
![](https://cdn.myportfolio.com/b3f6f38c-6911-4fdb-8ec0-8e43ec31d012/3a0f7874-48a4-4bcb-8e19-c97b53d54b70_rw_1920.jpg?h=12f2d3b6de3e952c9cd8b8c540d70578)
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Thank you!